My little one is 3 months old now! I experience great joy witnessing his growth and cheering silently in my heart at his little milestones every other week.
It also marks my 3rd month as a stay at home mom (SAHM). The idea of being a SAHM was rather daunting initially...and still is actually. I grew up as a latch-key kid and did not consider the prospects of being a SAHM until after my child was born. My insecurities as a SAHM doesn't ease with frequent questions from friends and colleagues on whether I'll shorten the period of leave to return to work. Pragmatically, I fully understand the constraints and choices that many women in our society make to return to the workforce.
Like many others, we initially planned to engage a part time babysitter to care for baby M when I resume work. Due to unforseen circumstances, the nanny we appointed backout at the last minute. Enlisting the help of our parents/in laws on a full-time basis was not an option we want to consider, neither was infant-care a suitable option due to the exorbitant prices. In the end, Tim and I decided that I will stay home with baby M for awhile, until he is ready to attend child care at a later age. Making this decision is difficult. I struggle with it every other day, but as we take this step as a family, I hope and pray that we will adjust to the changing priorities.
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| 3 month old Baby M with mohawkish hairstyle |
